Loving My husband Intentionally: Love Dare Day 20

June 2, 2012 at 7:09 am 1 comment

Day 19: Love is Impossible
Look back over the dares from previous days. Were there some that seemed impossible to you? Have you realized you need for God to change your heart and give you the ability to love? Ask Him to show you where you stand with Him, and ask for the strength and grace to settle your eternal destination. 
I spent a good hour with the Lord yesterday morning praying over all these things. I meditated over my life verse for 2012:
Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we’re in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he’s there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. ♥ ~Hebrews 12:2 (msg)
I know I am headed in the right direction….. I feel like I yield my whole self to Him every morning to simply be a vessel to be filled to the brim with the Holy Spirit. In my still time with Him yesterday He so showed up!
None of the previous Dares seemed impossible to me… at one point or another in my walk as a Godly wife, I think some of them would have, but I truly feel God with me every step of the way on this journey right now. I have let Him in to every single area…. and that makes all the difference.
I was busy yesterday morning getting ready to leave for the weekend. but all went well and I did not even feel stressed or anxious. Everything got done that God wanted me to complete and we even made it up to Louisville a little bit earlier than expected. We had a nice drive up and enjoyed singing along with Craig the whole way!
We had a lovely dinner with James at the 5 star restaurant he interned at up here. The food was wonderful and I enjoyed his company so much. The highlight of the evening was Craig gushing to him about how proud he is of him and how much respect he has for him. Both of us had our doubts on whether James would complete this culinary arts program with having aspergers, being his first time away from home, and mainly for the fact that he has a really hard time waking up in the morning. 80% of the students he began this program with have dropped out. James worked full-time while taking a full load of classes and was able to complete an internship at the same time for several months of the program.
He has never asked us for money. He had to get a new car since his died about 6 months into being at school. He has managed to save money and secured a job straight out of school starting at 40k a year as a Sous Chef!
WOW!!! In this economy, with life stacked against him, he is truly an inspiration to the both of us and we could not be more proud of him and excited for his future!
We went and saw a movie after dinner and that was nice too… I know that is a luxury that James does not afford himself very often, so we were happy to treat him.
God showed me that I do have one area I am not giving him complete control in…. with my kids and trusting my place in their lives. I am my own worst enemy when it comes to my insecurity in this area and God whispered so softly to me yesterday that I must give up and give it to Him. It will not only take my relationship with my kids to a whole new level, but it will bring Craig and I even closer. So, I vow to give this all I have and I know that with the Lord by my side, I will NOT STOP! God will help me to drop those suitcases that i have been carrying for 10 years and leave them at the door in order to finally make my self available to love as completely as He has so wonderfully made me to love.
Craig wrote a lovely post about our day here: www.adversusmundi.wordpress.com
Day 20: Love is Jesus Christ
Today, dare to take God at His Word. Dare to trust Christ for salvation. Dare to pray, “Lord Jesus, I am a sinner. But You have shown Your love for me by dying to forgive my sins, and You have proven Your power to save me from death by Your resurrection. Lord, change my heart, and save me by Your grace.”
Jesus was willing to love me, even when I didn’t deserve it and even when I didn’t love back. He was able to see all of my flaws and imperfections and still choose to love me. His love made the greatest sacrifice to meet my greatest need. As a result, I am able (by His grace) to walk in the fullness and blessing of His love. Now and forever.
This means that I now share this same love with Craig. I can love even when I’m not loved in return. I can see all his flaws and imperfections and still choose to love. And though I can’t meet his needs the way that God can, I can become His instrument to meet the needs of my husband. As a result, Craig can walk in the fullness and blessing of my love……. forever ❤
I cannot think of a greater gift to give him. This is so important, friends, and Lord, I pray that you are with all of us as we dare to love in the most complete way like You do. Show me today when we have time together what You want me to see about the condition of my own heart and areas you are still refining for Your glory. Give me the strength and endurance to run this race that You have marked for me. I thank You, Lord, for all You are and all You do. Be with me today as I dig deeper within my heart to see how I can better be loving my precious husband that You have so graciously entrusted me with. Please show me how to finally get rid of any and all insecure places in my heart. Amen.

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  • 1. Christi Wilson: Founder, Girlfriends Coffee Hour  |  June 2, 2012 at 5:42 pm

    I can so relate to you Megan. I am a stepmom too. I struggle a LOT feeling very unloved by them; especially the oldest. It is an area I know I need to let go of and give to God. The kids make it very obvious that they do not accept me. I think that’s what hurts the worst.


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