A Resolution to Champion Biblical Femininity: Role Reversal

“A woman’s strength is best seen

not in the demonstration of her power

 but in her ability to harness it

under the authority of God-given leadership.” (pg. 48)

My dear friends, last night was ROUGH…..

I was hit with a MAJOR blow and I did not harness the power of my biblical femininity very well at all. I was so very sad and hurt…. it was almost too much for me to bear. I know it killed Craig to hear me so sad and broken. He prayed over me the most beautifully desperate prayer, we said good night and professed our love for one another and hung up the phone.

I immediately felt peace fall over my spirit. God is THE ONLY way that could happen. Seriously, friends, I cannot begin to put words to the anguish I was feeling and then literally not a more than 10 seconds after I hung up the phone, I felt this wave of calm overtake my heart. I still felt exhausted and spent in every sense, but my heart that felt shattered into a million little pieces felt whole again and warm within an instant.

I cannot go into the details of my despair…. but it was most certainly centered around submission. It all had to do with the fact that I had to fill a leadership role where I was supposed to be submissive but couldn’t for very valid reasons….. and now I am reaping the turmoil of living outside of God’s will for this circumstance. Craig assured me that it will all turn around now that it is being made right….. but in the thick of it last night that was impossible for me to see.

I was so angry and frustrated about the position it put me in for so long. All I could do was wail and cry about how “unfair” it is. Craig agreed and assured me that I knew what to do and that God would show me how to make this all right. He rebuked any negative forces that were trying to over take me and keep me confused. He thanked God for not leaving my side and for the comfort He would give me. He Praised God for filling my Spirit with His peace.

God filled me with His peace that surpasses all understanding ❤

God is the only way I can explain how I feel right now as I type. It is 12:15 am….. about a half hour after I hung up with Craig and I feel calm. I am exhausted but I know with all my heart that God is with me and has already healed my broken heart.

Dear friends, please hear Priscilla’s words on page 44….

“Order MATTERS- whether we understand it or agree with it or even want it.

Nothing can truly and ultimately be enjoyed

when we’re not willing to remain within our roles and boundaries.”

I wanted nothing more than to stay happily within said biblical roles and boundaries, but I obviously wasn’t trusting God to fill the gap if *I* didn’t. I wasn’t trusting God and I wasn’t trusting my husband. I repent. I could go on and on here about all the reasons why I HAD to step up and lead when it was not my role to do so, but no excuse is valid.

I refuse to live in stubborn defiance any longer and I refuse to be a victim or a martyr. I knew better and I know now what I need to do.

I submit.

Lord, help me……… I submit. I choose the trusted, effective boundaries of God’s established order. I CONFIDENTLY resolve to yield to people, precepts, and principles that have been placed in my life as authorities.

PURPOSEFULLY FEMININE

I will champion God’s model for womanhood in the face of a postfeminist culture.

I will teach it to my daughter and encourage its support by my sons.

Signed x Megan “I need a cruise” Smidt

 Read about what Craig has to say about the men’s journey here: www.adversusmundi.wordpress.com